Dear fifteen-year-old me,
I know you think life is reaaaally hard right now, but that’s just the start. You’re literally at the start of being an actual grown-up. You’ve just got admitted to your school of choice, where you’re about to meet people that’ll change your life for the better. It’s going to be a hard four years, you’re going to want to quit, but trust me, it’s all worth it in the end. You’ll discover what you want from life and which direction you want to go.
First things first, you’re trying too hard to be the edgy emo kid, but actually, you’re quite jealous of all the girly girls around you and you desperately want to be like them. Just compromise.
Dying your hair black when you’re this pale, just makes you look ill.
You need to understand, you are not special, everyone has their own problems and constantly sobbing on Facebook won’t generate people’s sympathy for you. All you need is the harsh truth being broken to you. There are better people than you out there and there are also worse people. Be proud of who you are, what you can do, but don’t expect the world to revolve around you.
You can do so much better than having to please people (boys), who don’t appreciate and respect you. You don’t need any boy, that doesn’t need you.
You’re finding yourself in your first big relationship and you’re very confused about what you want from it. That’s fine, no one expects you to know. At this age, though, you still just want to mess around, but, again, think twice about who’s worth breaking your relationship for. It may not last forever, but he’s now one of your best friends.
Don’t delete your pictures and posts off Facebook, just put them on private; it’ll give you something to look back at.
Don’t take your family, especially your mother, for granted. They’re doing their best to give you what you deserve and you’ll want to repay them one day.
Don’t rush to grow up.
Don’t try to blend in with everyone. Getting crazy drunk won’t make you interesting or make boys like you.
I know, all you think is important in your life right now are boys, popularity and having enough money from your part-time job to buy unnecessary things, but there really is more to life than this. All this is transient.
Be true to yourself. Be kind to yourself. Learn to love yourself and everything about you, because that’s who you’ll be spending the rest of your life with and it’s only you that can always truly rely on.
Twenty-one-year-old future you.